A case of Paranoia

I've been so exhausted lately.
I go to bed at around 9 now just so I can get some more sleep but i just end up lying there, twisting and turning all nite until i form a headache which goes to stop me from sleeping even further. everything feels rough, the blankets and stuff, & i find it so hard to get out of bed in the mornings.

Amanda (my BFF, for those of you who dont know her) told me to go and see he doctor about it but i dont want to go because i always go to the doctors! When i was around the age of 13 or 14 my mom always took me to the doctors just for little things like nose bleeds or a stomach ache.
i can just imagine them sitting there, thinking: "ohh no not her again. she comes here all the time for no apartent reason. she's worse than a sick dog. she's sad." when i com up to the counter or walk into the doctor's room. i can see it on their faces or is that just paranoia kicking in? should i just go to the doctors anyway? but what if it isn't really serious. i probably just need to get a new pillow or something.
but what if they tell me to get a new pillow, and i do, and then i still cant get to sleep so i have to go there again and ask them what else i should do. that would make them so annoyed.

i feel a headache coming on now. how annoying.

so my lovely readers. I must ask you a very important question yet again if you have any tips on what i should do. i know it's stupid that I'm too scared to go the doctors but if you guys had the same sleeping problems you can just tell me and save the whole mortification of going to the doctors in the first place.
Are sleeping pills needed? Is that the solution?

Well I'm going to head off to see if i can get any sleep since it's around 10 at night when i'm writing this.

goodnight readers!